october 11

when i resolved to chatting, i can't help but wonder if these people are being real to themselves. no one will ever know if they are telling the truth. no one will care too i guess. most people are in for a good time. yeah, i too was there for a good time at first. but somehow as the days pass, i started to look for something else. you'll get bored of the food in front of your monitor eventually. that happened to me. people will look for comfort from people, people need to interact and be a social being. it is a natural urge.

i took the step and started with simple comments. "lol" was a good word to start with; i'm glad it was invented. i was a "loller", the best "loller" in fact... others "lolled" too, but i knew i was the best. lol. it was a pathetic life. some cared but most didn't. and then i grew some courage, spoke some other words. from then on, they knew i could spell more words... it was a huge step. the social urge as they say grew more and more each day.

then came the time that people started to recognise me. some remembered at least. wit was a key factor. i was a natural charmer. it was all with words and nothing else. then came people who started to like and pursue. it was awkward really. but maybe im a natural born flirt, it was never my intention but they fell for me. i am the worst, i must be. so maybe this is what giving wrong signals is. i never had this feeling before. or so i thought... maybe i had. as i waded through this small publicity, i met you.

a simple hi and hello. conversations that kept on for hours was a constant. we promised not to fall for each other. i never did. probably you didn't too. i never had the courage to reveal myself to you. but you were a natural talker too. it was like meeting a duplicate of me. slowly i was barenaked not in a literal way. you will probably shutdown your machine if that was the case. it was easy, not forced at all. i cut down the pursuers as you said, i knew you were happy when i did. i never had any intentions of having this any further but i am a softie. all of a sudden, you made me smile. that was a bad sign. we were constantly joking not to fall but all that time i was already willing to jump this cliff with you. but just as i was about to, you just cant... you were chained down with trouble.

i could not fight against that. you were in that state of uncertainty... you were complicated as you spoke more and more of you to me. i was willing to accept all of that dirt... i really was. i tried to break you free of that chain... i really did. you talked of plans but didn't work for it. you yourself were weighing you down. you were never willing to break that chain in the first place. it was a lossing case... it was hard. but i had to let it go. we were not meant to be. we met at the wrong time.

you were back with your ex. and i have to move on.

i never heard anything from you since oct 11

scarier than halloween

and now im back after a month's hiatus. who would have thought that i'd completely skip october? this project is just insane. imagine 14 hours of work 5 times a week... i am drag...

but for these couple of weeks i was gone, i did not allow myself to drown in despair... no no... not my style at all. while i worked my butts off on weekdays, i let loose on weekends... hmmm... not really but never mind, you know what i mean probably. wahihihi. limited rest indeed! if i were in a similar situation back in the philippines, i will surely whither in no time. (family is not part of the comparison of course. nothing beats the comforts of family. V(^o^)V ) good thing im not!

updates... hmm... well, too bad now though that a new law was passed in japan. p2p downloading is now prohibited!!! now what is the use of a fast internet connection if downloading is illegal, you may ask. well, streaming is still allowed though so i'm not that panicky yet. (who downloads porn these days? oops... slip of the finger. wahihihi) but it really was a huge blow though. finding online versions of your favorite movies and series can be a little frustrating. it takes skill to know what keywords to search for. lol... the new law somehow minimized my things to do when bored in japan.

but who needs internet when there is...

food!!! yum yum

oooops.. that last one was intended. lol.

and...

wet but dry

For some reason i cannot fathom, i happened to be with beautiful-eyes chan and loud-cook on a car. It was probably going somewhere for quite sometime now. We were so engrossed in a conversation i couldn't recall when we passed by a girl acquaintance. For some strange turn of events, we decided to take her with us and have some fucking good time with emphasis on fucking (yeah, this entry is a little for adults only. sorry guys, but i got to write what i got to write). The plan was to have some girl with beautiful-eyes and then me with beautiful-eyes action. I couldn't imagine how great that must be for eyes-chan but it must also be tiring and stressful.

So off we went to loud-cook's abode so we can start at the earliest. With only some drinks offered but never accepted, the girl and eyes-chan undressed and caressed each other: slowly and passionately until only their undies were left--black and purple (i'm very much colorblind but those sure were undies). Lips were so locked up that air couldn't possibly enter. It was hot. HOT hot! Piping HOT hot! And sorry but i couldn't contain myself from not joining the fun. I just had too. I was driven by lust and nothing else. I even forgot what i was there for. My sexuality was out of the question. I just had to do it. I fondled the girl's pinkish part. Yeah i did. And yeah it was wet. But as my fingers tried to dug in further, the girl shrunk and shrunk to the point that even my pinky couldn't fit in any longer. It was a disaster! And a total turn off. It's as if she wouldn't allow any part of me to enter her. Was i that disgusting or horrible to her? I couldn't tell. But the moment i got away, she puffed back to normal and they continued their joy to the last drop. It must have been great, they were covered in sweat. It must have been sweet. And i want to have my share.

It was my turn to get happy finally. And i was excited, or at least some part of me was. I allowed some time for eyes-chan to recover. But the doorbell rang. Damn! A friend of the cook's came. Total disaster! So i waited for him to leave. And it seemed like ages has passed. I got engrossed in the conversation as well.

Then i realized that i was left alone with the girl. And i was comforting her for some reason. In that situation i had bigger issues than her; where are eyes-chan and the cook? The girl talked like crazy: a soliloquy but with me in it. She was complaining about her life. No one has loved her ever since. Hmmm... familiar story; she must have read my autobiography. She was crying and sappy in my arms when eyes-chan and the cook came back. It appeared that eyes-chan and the cook went to church. They must be repenting for whatever sins they are about to commit to my willing body. I gave a smile; I can see the hunger in eyes-chan's eyes and i loved it. Who am i to deny such earthly pleasures? That was enough for me. As we were about to satiate our carnal desires, the doorbell rang, again.

Relatives of the cook were welcomed in and it seems they were not going anywhere else for quite some time. What? It was a disaster? I haven't even touched flesh! I haven't even unbuckled my belt. Prolonging my pleasure for the second time was not what i was looking for. I was desperate but i am not an exhibitionist. This was a dilemma i cannot solve. I was planning to be as expressive (read as noisy) as i can. But all of it turned to waste. Eyes-chan and the cook were also frustrated. But how should we proceed?

I had to wake up from this nightmare, that was the answer. And i did... frustrated...

It was not the pleasure i was after. But it was the frustration from having to wait. It was a bad timing but hindered twice must be an omen. I shouldn't be frustrated by a dream, i know. But this one seemed like a reflection of the reality... I am still single... I am still a virgin.

But i can still dream. Which means that i can still sleep. Which means that i will still be waking up in tomorrow's present.

What a dry wet dream... Nightmare!

20 crazy facts about sex

well these certainly did not come from me. i haven't had any experience on this matter. but as they said, these are facts. and don't get me wrong, japan did not make me a pervert (i already am ever since). what a nice entry for a comeback. bwahahahaha. hope this does not get me banned.

WARNING: this is not for the faint of heart.


WARNING: you have been warned earlier so do not complain.


WARNING: i also don't know if these are real facts. bwahahahha. what a careless blogger i am.

I'm just joking, these are pretty harmless. wahahahha

rules of flirting

i always knew flirting was an art. tickling sensations and getting responses from mere gestures is an art way above there. as an art enthusiast, i researched on it and stumbled upon this article. i was never a flirt... mmm... or was i? i couldn't tell but i always smiled. bwahahahaha. now let's get going.

APPROACHEE (the magneto)

• Rule 1: Smile.  Just because someone looked your way doesn’t necessarily mean you are liked by that person (maybe you still have pesto stuck between your teeth).  To test the water, so to speak, smile.  If you get a smile back, that still wouldn’t mean he likes you.  So smile more – and wider this time.  If his smile widens, too, then there may just be something there.

• Rule 2: Don’t stare.  Only ugly people stare.  That’s not a joke, but a statement of a fact.  Beautiful people (why they’re the “approachees”) give furtive glances, no more.  It teases the approacher, and, at the same time, provides the approachee with ample time to look if the tentative smiles are returned, so the next steps can be taken.

• Rule 3: Wink.  Another way to test the water, albeit more blatant.  This is somewhat optional, however, since not that many can wink sexily.

• Rule 4: Nod gently.  If somewhat sure the target is returning the flirting, nod gently – this should encourage them to approach you.

• Rule 5: Shake head while smiling.  Sometimes the target thinks highly of himself because he was being flirted with, in the first place, so he immediately pretends to be disinterested (it thus becomes a battle of wills on who will stay as the approachee).  When this happens, make sure to catch his attention again, and then smile at him (as naughtily as possible) while slightly shaking the head.  Then give a somewhat longer-lasting look (still not a stare!).

• Rule 6: Feign disinterest.  Talk to your friends while occasionally looking his way.  When you catch him looking back, forget the nice smile this time – give a flat smile, instead, coupled with a slight nod, before looking away to continue conversing with your friends.  This is to tell him you have other people in your circle (he isn’t the only one in the party).

• Rule 7: Accept the truth.  After Rule 6, try Rule 1 (only Rule 1) again.  If he still doesn’t take any steps, then he may not really interested in you in the first place – or is still feeling too beautiful for you, so is expecting for you to make the initial moves.  If you don’t think he is worth it, move on.

APPROACHER (the daredevil)

• Rule 1: Smile.  While looking around, smile – or at least look interested and interesting to what is happening around you.  This way, you check what’s in the market, while, I bet, getting checked, too.

• Rule 2: Wait for a reaction.  In the interest of self-preservation, approach only those who may return whatever it is you are giving out (unless you are used to getting dumped), so wait for some signs, e.g. smiles, nods of acknowledgment, et cetera.

• Rule 3: Always approach with caution.  Even when you think you got the right signals, the approachee may just be playing with you, so approach with care (e.g. pretend to be just buying a drink at the bar, so you are just passing his way; or pretend to bump against him while dancing), and wait for even more signals (e.g. more glances, wider smiles, greetings, et cetera).

• Rule 4: Have self-respect.  If, at any point while talking to the other guy, you sense you are not really liked, the truth is you are not really liked.  So just come up with some lame excuse (e.g. say “My fuck buddy’s just arrived” while nodding towards a drop dead gorgeous guy you will never, ever even be able to touch) and leave with whatever shred of dignity you can still hold on to.

• Rule 5: Learn the art of dumping.  Just because you are the one who approaches doesn’t mean you always have to be the one to be rejected.  If, for any reason, you don’t find the target that nice up close, dump him – there are more to approach.

good thing i haven't stared. bwahahahaha. unknowingly, i did some of these but i never really intended them for flirting. maybe i am but a sexy thing. (overconfidence flooding in). oh well, i'm nothing but words so no worries in there. but really, i think these are effective. 

as a final say, go out and enjoy! you don't need rules to follow. just feel what you feel and act accordingly. it will all come out naturally... or even spurt!

12 TYPES OF GAY

got this message recently from my mail and i just have to share it to you guys. wahahahha. ganyan pala ka dami? sobrang itemized nito siguro. of course, credit goes to whoever wrote this, i just shared it remember? disclaimer ko na din yan, baka kasi may sumugod at maghamon ng away. hate ko pa naman ang confrontations. bwahahaha. i also would have liked to add pictures but decided not to. baka ma ban pa ang site. wahahahha. anyway, tell me which number are you? enjoy!

12 TYPES OF GAY

1. CLOSET GAY - the basic, mga baklang a...yaw umamin ng kanilang kabaklaan. Sila ay madalas na pigil at laging pinag-iisipan ang kanilang kilos. Madalas pag nasa maraming tao, kilos lalaki sila pero pag dilim, dun lumalabas ang totoong kulay.

Bukambibig: "Huwag kang maingay, hindi alam ng tatay ko na bakla ako!"

2. SISTER L - baklang lantaran sa kanilang mga kabaklaan. Sila yung mga nagdadamit ng pambabae, nagme-make-up, at yung iba, nagpapa-sex change.

Bukambibig: "Punta tayo sa katabing bar, maraming mga lalaking gwapo dun!"

3. MACHO-CHOPA - baklang hindi mo aakalain dahil mas guwapo at macho pa sa tunay na lalaki. Ito yung mga baklang maskulado, nagdyi-gym madalas upang magpalaki ng katawan. Pero pag kumilos si macho-chopa e halata mo ring charingdahil mahilig magpa-cute sa mga guwapong trainor sa gym.

Bukambibig: "Hi, can I know your number?"

4. MALDITA - baklang nakakaimbiyerna, masyadong nagmamaganda kahit na mukhang pwet ng baso ang mukha. Madalas mataray, parang laging nireregla. Masyado ring insecure ang maldita sa mga magagandang babae.

Bukambibig: "Che! Lumayas ka sa harapan ko. Sinisira mo araw ko! Bruha ka!"

5. SPICE GAY - baklang elite, socialite, laging nasa mall, starbucks, at madalas gumimik sa Malate. Kadalasan maiingay ang mga spice gays. Madalas binubuo sila ng 3-5 sa isang grupo. Madalas itong naka-wheels at mga branded ang sinusuot na damit. Madalas rin silang may shades na suot-suot. Sa pananamit naman, mahahalata mo rin na bakla sila dahil mas kikay pa sila kaysa sa mga babae. Pero hindi sila nagdadamit ng obvious na pambabaeng damit. To add, medyo mayabang rin ang mga spice gays.

Bukambibig: "You know, I bought this bag from Italy. It’s Gucci and it is very expensive."

6. SANTA CLARA - baklang may magandang determinasyon. Siya yung relihiyoso. Madalas siyang nagiging katekista, minsan pumapasok sa seminaryo upang maging pari. Hindi gaanong lumalabas ng bahay dahil parating nagdarasal upang layuan siya ng tukso. Madalas siyang active sa charity works at novenas. Kaunti lamang ang mga Santa Clara pero sila ang mga baklang huwaran.

Bukambibig: "Diyos ko, tulungan mo po akong lumayo sa kahit anumang tukso. Amen."

7. BUD-WISER - hindi ito pangalan ng alak o beer, another type ito ng gays. Ito yung baklang hindi madaling maloko ng mga lalaki kahit guwapo pa siya. Masyadong masinop sa pera at pessimistic with regards to men. Kadalasan siya yung nagtatagumpay sa buhay. Minsan mas pipiliin pa niyang mag-asawa ng girl kahit na diring-diri siya kaysa kuwartahan ng lalaki. Kaya siya nag-aasawa ng girl dahil para hindi siya makuwartahan nito.

Bukambibig: "Manloloko silang lahat!"

8. SANTA CLAUS-A - opposite ng BUD-WISER, ito yung baklang bigay-kaya - sa lalaki niya o sa mga kaibigan, kapamilya o kamag-anak niya. Madalas walang pera ang mga Santa Clausa. Sila ang mga baklang madaling maloko. Magastos rin ang mga ganitong type ng gays.

Bukambibig: "Anong gusto mo? Ibibigay ko ang lahat kahit wala na akong pera."

9. DETECTIVE CHUVA - baklitang daig pa ang isang detective kung subaybayan niya ang kanyang "special someone". Ika nga, stalker. Lahat ng tungkol sa kanyang crush e alam niya. Ni ultimo kung kailang ang birthday, kung ano ang favorite food, favorite movie, favorite hung-out, favorite blah-blah. Madalas siyang panakaw kung tumingin. Pasulyap-sulyap lang kuno pero pinagnanasaan na pala niya.

Bukambibig: "Mapapasaakin ka rin balang araw…"

10. HANDSOMMA (Pronounciation: hand-sa-ma) - gay na biniyayaan ng mukha. Heto yung mga tipong habulin ng babae. Minsan ang mga Handsomma ay closet gay, pilit na itinatago ang tunay na pagkatao. Sa panlabas, chickboy si Handsomma pero deep inside, lalaki ang gusto. Sayang ang kaguwapuhan ng mga ito at tiyak na ang laking panghihinayang ng mga babae.

Bukambibig: "Yuck, hindi tayo talo noh!"

11. ECLATUGZ - gay na mahilig tumagay. In short lassenggera este lassengero. Mahilig mag-aya ng inuman si Eclatugz lalo na kung ang aayain niya eh yung crush niya. Kunwari aayain ng Eclatugz ang kanyang crush sa isang inuman. Tapos pag nalasing na ang kawawang guy, patay siya! Tiyak pagpipistahan na siya ni Eclatugz.

Bukambibig: "Pare, inuman tayo! Minsan lang toh noh!"

12. MANIAC - uri ng gay na may maling determinasyon. Ito yung mga maniacs o mapang-nasa sa kapwa lalaki. Siya yung tipo ng gay na gagawin ang lahat para lamang masatisfy sa kanyang carnal hunger. Madalas ay pedophile or maaaring hustler ang maniac.

Bukambibig: "Sa akin ka lang! Sa akin ka lang kung ayaw mong mamatay!"

hachijojima 2009 sept, 21-23 final day(the beach experience 2)

on the third day he rose again and descended down the mountain. gosh! oops, we didn't descend by foot this time. we called a cab to fetch us. as we rode the cab down to the port, i had my last glimpses of the empty streets and green scenery. i know that i will miss this place. if i were a lot more melodramatic, i would have shed some tears. before midnight, i will be back by night to the hustle and bustle of mainland tokyo--back again to the fast paced life. goodbye my laid-back hachijojima life.

100 truths

since i have nothing to do then i'll try this. enjoy

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = coffee mocha from a one peso vending machine
2. last phone call = Aime Amor, regarding a CMR for RM. (super work related)
3. last text message = to Tiny informing her of how to get to Boracay from Caticlan
4. last song you listened to = Kahit Isang Saglit by Martin Nievera
5. last time you cried = earlier today after some chinese mentholated stuff got into my eyes

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = nopes
7. been cheated on = nopes
8. kissed someone & regretted it = nopes
9. lost someone special = yes, we separated ways. I'm not even sure if they miss me.
10. been depressed = who doesn't? but at least i rebounded
11. been drunk and threw up = never threw up. i'm a sane drinker

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Purple
13. Orange
14. Red

LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend = yes. unexpectedly, i did
16. Fallen out of love = hmmm. wrong question to ask.
17. Laughed until you cried = of course. i'm good at laughing
18. Met someone who changed you = yup.
19. Found out who your true friends were = i only keep few friends and i know all of them are true.
20. Found out someone was talking about you = yup. when you are famous, it is bound to happen. wahahahha
21. Kissed anyone on your fb friend's list = hmmm. another wrong question. wahihihi

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your fb friends list do you know in real life = i know most of them. about 98%
24. Do you have any pets = i do. ooops, my family does.
25. Do you want to change your name = ughm, a little more characters would be better. i only have 5 letters for a name.
26. What did you do for your last birthday = had a little feast at home.
27. What time did you wake up today = around 6:15. earlier than usual
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = watched a hungarian movie online
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = the day i travel out of the country preferably japan or south korea
30. Last time you saw your Mother = early this morning while preparing my breakfast
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about you = my height. if i could only grow 4 inches more
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = tom cruise??? haven't met any tom
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = boredom
35. Most visited webpage = facebook. my blog.
37. Nicknames = fritzie, furitsu, fritz boi.
38. Relationship Status = single since birth
39. Zodiac sign = sexy scorpio
40. Male or female? = male
41. Elementary? = Mandaue City Central School
42. Middle School = University of the Philippines High School in Cebu
44. Hair colour = very dark brown
45. Long or short = middle length.
46. Height = above 5'6"
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = yes
48: What do you like about yourself? = positive outlook
49. Piercing= nopes
50. Tattoos = none
51. Righty or lefty= righty.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = does circumcision count???
53. First piercing = never had any
54. First best friend = Cyril my childhood friend
55. First sport you joined = dakop-dakop was a sport back then.
56. First vacation = davao way back 1990s
58. First crush = Grade 4?

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = nothing.
60. Drinking = nothing.
61. I'm about to= get some water to drink.
62. Listening to = keyboard clicking in the office.
63. Waiting for = 6:30 to get out of here.

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = maybe a couple of kids will do.
65. Get Married? = i just want to have a partner, married or not.
66. Career? = i'm afraid to become a call center agent. hopefully my next career would be related to traveling.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes = eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses = kisses.
69. Shorter or taller= taller.
70. Older or Younger = younger at heart
71. Romantic or spontaneous = can i have both?
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = does nice stomach=big appetite and nice arms=kargador??? oh please.
73. Sensitive or loud = sensitive.
74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = a little of both worlds is fine

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = again, a wrong question in here.
77. Drank hard liquor = yup.
78. Lost glasses/contacts = left my shades on an island in japan
79. Sex on first date = im a virgin. doutei desu.
80. Broken someone's heart = i'm not sure.
81. Had your own heart broken = yeah and it was painful.
82. Been arrested = nopes
83. Turned someone down = i think so.
84. Cried when someone died = not yet.
85. Fallen for a friend? = interesting question.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = yes. if i don't then how would i convince others?
87. Miracles = yup.
88. Love at first sight = don't you mean lust???
89. Heaven = YES!
90. Santa Claus = i would love to believe.
91. Kiss on the first date = we didn't kiss.
92. Angels = yes yes yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf? = nope.
95. Did you sing today? = yup. i love singing
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = nopes. this should have been, have you ever been in a romantic relationship and i could have said nope. wahihihi
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = about two years back when life in japan was great. wahahaha
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = a little.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = i'm about to.


done!!!

hubo

today, we are having the annual medical examination of our company. blood pressure, cbc test, urinalysis, eye exam, chest xray were taken. but what makes it different is the dreaded physical exam. well, its dreaded for us filipinos who are not used to being naked in front of people.

but what makes it even more exciting are the rumors around it.

legend: CM - Career Manager

jj b: ana...

jj b: pa hubo-on baya jud CM

jj b: bare naked

jj b: :))

jj b: ahaka lagi unexpected kau ,,,wa ko mag dahom

itz: yeah, bare naked gyud bitaw daw

itz: sige lang

itz: maayo gani kami ra sa doctor

itz: ug ang cam niya

itz: wahahahha

aftereffects of a downpour

after the heavy rain, i looked out of my window. everything was flooded. at least the rain stopped but the sun wasn't up yet. and because i live on the second floor, naturally, i could see everything. everything below, i mean.

and then i saw a guy in blue from afar -- quite far but still recognizable. but i don't know my neighbors so i don't know who he was as well. we was just there sitting on some bench. then he stood up and went behind a car. and came back to sit a little while after. that was weird, i thought. he did the same thing twice now.

and then i noticed that he was looking towards the iron fence (galvanized iron). was he peeping??? he was looking through small holes on the fence. and then he stood up again and went behind a parked car. it seemed like he was trying to look over the fence. hmmm... he is peeping!!!

he did the same routine again and again. i kept on looking, wondering what might happen if he gets caught. he just kept on peeping.

and then i realized, just like a eureka. i am doing the same thing. i am also peeping. gosh!!!

a traveller contemplates

i have completely lost my way.

at first it was complete joy, new places and new people to meet.

but it is not the case now.

looking back, i realized that as the time went by it was no more fun.

i have always chosen the safe path, never have i traveled the unknown again.

the friends i knew then were no more there, we have grown apart.

my relationship with people have grown sour and life has become more unfair.

but what hurts me the most is that all of those held me back.

i just want to laugh hard again, to smile to the fullest.

i want to rediscover this place again and not grow tired of it.

i want to try something new, i want to have the courage to try something new.

i want to fly with nothing holding me down.

let me soar...

let me flirt... (oops, wahahahha)

blue

i never expected this post in the first place. i have 2 drafts waiting for final checking but those can wait.

i am an avid fan of dancing with the stars, i won't even deny that. so yesterday, i downloaded the latest episodes and started watching late night. the first one was smooth, enjoyed it so much. now moving on to the next, ooops... i can't play it. media player suggested a codec to install; so there goes the trusting me, naively downloaded and installed the codec.

blue


surprise surprise... though i'm colorblind, i know what this means. rebooted and...

blue


wtf!!!

latest known good configuration and...

blue


safe mode and...

blue


WTF!!! if i have watched porn then these things are somehow a consequence, but i didn't... what pisses me off is the fact that this was a windows suggestion... double WTF!!! i should have just watched porn.

and now i told the world about it and guess what they said...

too much porn can cause laptops to behave erratically

i really should have just watched porn.





ps: i'm still in office so can't do much about it. got couple of ideas though...
ps x2: the commenter above doesn't want to be called "the world". "the world" is surely harsh asking me to throw away my laptop now. wahahaha...

the beach experience 1 (sarushima 2009-Sep-13)

this might be a little too late for beaches, summer has definitely passed. but right before autumn started, we had our beach escapades. funny thing is, we never went to the beach on the onset of summer. it was just that at one point we realized that it was getting colder and colder but we haven't enjoyed the sun yet. so on one fateful weekend, we packed for sarushima which literally translates to monkey island... wahahha.. monkeys are going to monkey island. great!!!

path from the port to the island

so we road the train and got off at some port. and then rode on a boat. this is scary. i never learned to swim so my natural tendency is to search where the floaters are at. who knows what might happen... the view of the island was just splendid. should have taken shots of it while far. i was excited to the brim.

so crowded

reaching the island took 15 minutes. to our surprise, it was crowded. there were lots of people enjoying barbecue on the beach. what i find amusing with how the japanese enjoy the sea is that they are fully clothed. only a few are dressed for the beach, this means few skin to see. wahihihi... most also stay in the shade and never go for a swim. it is like the beach is a place where they go for barbecues and alcohol but not for swimming. and when they get drunk, they throw people to the waters fully clothed. too bad if you were thrown with a wallet and cellphone in your pocket. what a waste...

people thrown to the sea fully clothed

another victim...

i sympathize with the owner...

selected few who were ready for the beach. :D

we acted like kids hungry for the sea. who wouldn't? we lived in an island known for beaches back home, cebu. so we dipped in and went crazy. i never wanted it to end but out there is the horizon, you can still see the city. it was like i was constantly reminded that this is but a short get-away; the busy work life will be back soon. ohhh... sooooooo bad...

a boat suddenly blocked the view. might as well take it.

we were in sarushima or monkey island, but where were the monkeys??? aside from the monkey-looking-and-acting people, i haven't seen real monkeys in there but i saw hawks instead. lots of hawks. this should be called hawk island instead. wait, do hawks eat monkeys? maybe they have eaten all of them. wahihihi...




too bad, all good things have to end. with heavy heart for leaving early, and heavy feet for enjoying too much, we rode the last boat trip back to the mainland. the view of the island is just great. i surely did enjoy my summer break.

this was the last boat since the supposed last boat got overcrowded that a new boat needs to get the others

wow... i hope life stays like this. but my job haunted me after a few hours. T.T

but before my job haunted me we had some pictures taken in the park across the island. somehow, we were not in the mood for posing. i greatly apologize. wahahahha...

amusement -- yokohama cosmo world

had to tour a new housemate last sunday though it was against my will for i had to speak a different language other than english, japanese, and cebuano the whole time. it is a big headache listening to yourself sounding weird. so we went to an amusement park, best place to go for those with no itinerary. just ride any ride you want...

we rode the 13th highest ferris wheel in the world, Cosmo Clock 21, situated in yokohama. it was my second time riding that and i admit i was quite scared--i have acrophobia and the wheel rises up to 112.5 meters. that is freakin' tall. it would take more seconds before reaching the ground if ever you fall. and more seconds means more time to think of what will happen next, though most will end up dead. wahahha...

up there we saw the whole place, we made plans on where to go next depending on what we saw. we took lots of pictures and we rocked the ferris wheel capsule scaring ourselves.

after the 15 minute ride, i saw something amusing but kept it to myself. if most people go to amusement parks to enjoy the rides, well these two had a different kind of amusement planned. wahahahaha... the girl was massaging her man's groin. what the hell were they doing??? there are many kids in places like this ok. there are virgins like me.. oh.. my innocent eyes were glued to their actions.

the pervy me.

they should have done more. wahahha. ooops... innocent brain, be innocent again. wahahaha

49 --- the incident

i don't even know where to start.

i woke up at around 6:30 thinking that i will be late for work... but nope, i have no work on saturdays... i decided to stay on bed some more. then started to browse some nihongo (japanese notes) but my eyes could not stay open... i dozed of back to dreamland...

after some minute, i woke up and tried to stay up. i went to my aunt's room and took pictures of me using the phone. but the room was dark and gloomy, so i opened the curtains a bit. i took pictures of me by the window. i posed long and hard. but then to my dismay, i hate all pics... i went back to bed and read the notes some more and back to dreamland again...

after some time, my mother came up asking me of some weird questions. did i took photos or even videos of people outside? i said i did took some pics this morning. then she said that a neighbor complained that i took a video of him while he was making a pee... ok... i didn't know about this.. when did this all happen again? and mom said that a man came a while ago and asked if we have a phone with cam and all and allegedly said that he was video-ed while making a pee...

how strange... mom and dad defended me and told him that it was surely not him i cam-ed... i was glad they were there... i would have looked stupid explaining things i have no idea about... i never bothered to explain... come on, why would he even pee towards our house... shame on him for doing so...

jaa...

second post for the day.... (depression sinks in)

hay, nganong lain man akong feeling karon oi... feeling depressed kaayo... kapoy... ambot lang.... laay kaayo.... ikaduha na ni nako na post for this day and still i feel that i need to post more...



yesterday i watched the free japanese film at ayala and though it was r18 i can't see anything which makes it one... whaihihihihi... okay okay, there were scenes not meant for kids but they were short and were very funny. and it was not on a lustful context.


we, i and shiela, planned to watch the movie together and keep up with each other... (its hard to find real friends you know. especially at my status where i treat everyone as friends, its hard to know who are real.) and we met other UPians there too. UPians must really be a fan of any free movie... wahihihihihihi.... (hope to see them in the next film festivals to come--cine europa, chinese, australian, etc.) its just good to see and hear others doing well after school. i can also see an invisible bond which keeps us UPians together... though im not an active part of the campus, never been to any rallies, never accomplished something worth bragging for the school, i can feel the UP spirit in me...



ive never been very vocal with regards to political or any other issues but i do have a side... i take stand on things... i just dont believe that rallies can make a very big change...  im so sorry but there are just other things that i believe are more effective than rallies... im fed up with all the rallies here and there demanding the administration to step down... but i dont think that stepping down is the real answer to all this... i think if we only start with ourselves, surely there will be a change... anyway, i dont know why im writing about this now or even why im acting this way. i guess im just affected by the blog i just read... the blog of "coconuter".



im sick of all people making everything possible to be close to you just because of the status or anything you have... its plain bullshit... why is this world so dependent on status? why cant we all just live together harmoniously? why do we filipinos have to kiss somebodies ass just to gain a little increase in possition? i dont know why im writing about this but i think im just tired of everything...



why do filipinos regard of anything foreign as something good??? why do they think that when someone goes abroad, swerte? i just dont know... im sick of this system... why is it like that? i dont know... i dont know why im having this outburst even...



hay i dont know.... i just dont know.... maybe im thinking of my future already... maybe im worried of what the future has instored for me... i just want to live peacefully, enjoy the little blessings that come... i actually dont want to achieve much... but i dont know... there is just something in me that me myself dont want to accept... there is something that i dont want to face... there is this void, dark place in me that i want to fill... i want to experience everything... but i havent tried them because of the norms of society... i dont want to stay this way forever... i dont know... there is this hunger for more... there are some things you cant do because of your repuation but damn those reputations... i dont want to be bound.... i want to be free. i want to......


hay... its just now that ive realized that the way ive lived for the past 20years was empty... it was fulfilling but i should have experienced more... and now that im working, i dont know if i still can try them.... i dont know.... i want to try other stuff... i want to explore what else i can do... i dont know... i dont know...



but as much as i would like to try new things, im scared of what might happen... im scared....... im scared... oh god what is this im feeling....