26th...(more complaints)

for most of my life, i have always been an achiever... i dont know how or why but i am... its not that i do something different, i dont even do something extra for the things that i am doing or about to do. i think its in my nature. what i do know is that i can remember many things. its not something photographic though but i can remember many... i can even still remember the capital cities of many countries of the world. and i am damn proud and thankful for this brain i have... and another thing, as much as possible i dont settle for anything less... if i know that i can achieve more, then why not do it instead...



and now to my complaint, why do people instead of envying others not do their best instead??? instead of blaming others for their shortcomings, why not blame themselves for not giving their best in everything... and if they did their best, why still say bad words to others who did better instead of just being happy for giving it their best? why make others feel bad for achieving something? its just unfair. very unfair... why become sour grapes? why not be happy for others? why always make reasons for others' success? why not look at yourself and sort out what things you lack?



thats all folks... i dont wanna talk more about this. im just happy with my life and this is nothing compared to the many happy moments in my life...

25th (complaints)

i have been thinking about this for a long time and its just now that i finally took the courage to write about it (char... as if its very important.... wahihihihihi).


once long time ago at work, my female seatmate requested whether she can use my pc. she was gonna surf the internet. so i leaned away and she came over. we were seated only 2 or 3 feet away and our chairs have wheels. she asked if she can sit down. i told her that her chair is only 2 or 3 feet away, why not use it instead. then she said "your really not a gentleman". i never reacted then coz im quite used to our teasings and stuff, but when i think of it now, it really pisses me off... what the F#@K!!! i do know that women should be taken care of, etc..., blah, blah, blah... but i do also know that women can do almost all things, if not everything, that a man can do... women around the world claim to be independent. i dont like the idea of women expecting men always (as in all the time) to be at their service. its as if theyre a precious crystal that easily breaks even by a soft breeze. i thought women are independent but why are some always needing help, always needing a man to be with her and do her errands? its just a lame excuse for being lazy... demanding lazy women should be banished from the face of the earth...


second complaint, i was so happy these past few days not until now. i have made plans for the long holiday on december though theyre not as exciting as that of others. i have planned to stay home and have a long sleep (its really needed especially now). but just now, my worst dream came true. the supposedly long holiday poofed away. i just wish our management will not change our previous agreement. whats said has been said. no taking words back. giving false hopes is just the worst that can happen...



thats all for now.

my goodness!


ill be dealing with java applets this time... wow!

boredom...

is it my fault to be bored?


is it my fault that i have nothing to do?


i do find ways to be helpful but i can't always do those things?


i just can't get rid of what college taught me-- "the easiest way to get an employee to resign is to give him no job, assign him no task... eventually he will get stressed thinking about it and then decide to leave the company later on"... is this what is being applied to me? i hope that this is not the case with me... because if it is, its already getting into my nerves... i am now thinking of ways to get myself useful... they will eventually succeed on pushing me out if its their main purpose... its not that i have no project, i do have one, but the problem is that this project won't start... my teammates, too have no particular task... don't tell me we are all planned to be thrown out... that's just unfair..


i really hope this is not a plan nor a trick...

im getting more sick...

help me...




ive been having cough and colds for the past week and im getting no better. i can't even stand my headache. i really dont know what to do... my birthday is tomorrow and i think i will be absent. this sickness has got to end...




bye