romeos

i watched a rather interesting film last night and i would like to share it with you guys. pardon for my naivety; i do not watch movies for their cinematography nor any other technical aspects (i do admit that costume and set sometimes triggers me to watch movies). but i watch movies either because i am intrigued by the movie (plot included), the actors look great (contributes around 70% for less advertised movies), there is some fun involved (that includes either comedy or hot seduction), or any mix of the above. that is how unreliable i am.

here is my write-up for Romeos, a 2011 German film.

let me start by saying that the movie was really something. it started with a man, Lukas (rick okon), who just moved to Cologne and was accidentally assigned to the female dormitories. well at least that was what it seemed to me initially. the first scene was awkward with Lukas entering the toilet examining himself in the mirror and then suddenly a woman with towel wrapped around her body(obviously from the shower) came in view. she then screamed her lungs out.

two cases of friendship

the fact that i have no hesitations in telling what i feel towards you means that i believe that the bond we have is strong enough to take it... that no matter what i say, you would take it as an advice... that no matter how different our ideals are, it is for your betterment from my perspective... it is never meant to harm you nor push you away...

but how come this is going nowhere?

of course i didn't expect it to be easy. making you follow my advice is not my goal. all i was asking was for you to rethink. and yes you did think. but how come you are suddenly preaching about friendships? is it too much to ask to be happy for you, you say. but you never told me remember; you didn't ask me to be happy for you. if i didn't blurt out those comments, you wouldn't have told me anything. of course i am happy that you are happy but it would keep me at ease if i knew more details. it would feel better and more genuine if things that might complicate were taken care of first. i don't like this "you and me against the world" scenario. if you really believe that this is it then why keep it a secret? you think there is nothing wrong, i too think there is nothing wrong but please tell those concerned parties. you can keep hating me for not supporting your decision fully. but know that i am still happy for you.

and here is another one...

on the other side of the world, here is another with a blooming heart. keep on dating girl, there is nothing wrong with it. i am happy for your possible first but am sad for myself as well. i can't help but feel a little envious for soon you will be experiencing love. i too want to feel it myself. it aches a little when you reminisce. i want to know more but am afraid to know. and then i smile seeing that shyness while you recall. there is that spark in your eyes. and that makes me happy. i know that envy is wrong but i can drown it in this happiness i feel for you. my story is different than yours and now is your time to be in the spotlight. i don't want to replace you under that (for harsh light can cause damage to your skin. bitter!!! wahahahha...)

gosh!!!

maskara 55

if feelings were as free flowing as the wind, it might be easier to express everything i'm feeling. unfortunately, mine is not. if mine were, then it would be like a hurricane spreading havoc to all. i don't want that to happen... so i'd rather not tell... i don't wanna wear a mask but who doesn't??? people wear a mask at some point in their lives. in my case, my mask has "keeping quite" written all over it.

i guess people have realized that i don't really open up personal stuffs. this is really not my forte. i hate to share because i might not be able to contain my words.... i might spill out more than asked... i'm a good listener though and i have never spilled out what others have shared to me... and i'm sorry but i've got a bad memory so i guess that makes me the best secret keeper... over time, even i forget the secrets told so how could i even share them... now before i drift into that topic more and more, i better go back to my point... i hate to share my feelings because i too, have not yet figured it out..... this is the harsh reality of it... i haven't figured out myself yet... so when people ask something, i just shrug my shoulders without saying anything...that is the best answer i have come up...

my zodiac sign agrees to my mask too... look at how they view scorpios.... aside from being sexy, romantic, loyal, great kisser, it always says that scorpios are secretive... the other adjectives are quite obvious (reserve your comments later...) though i still don't know about the great kisser part... anyone wants to volunteer??? ohh i forgot... they also mention that scorpios are great lovers... another volunteer needed for this too... but secretive is always there.. i don't know if people around me knows that i'm secretive... they tell me their secrets so maybe they do... secretive people = good secret keepers... does that make sense??? to me it does... i've been told quite a lot and i've forgotten quite a lot too... but i have never told anyone of my secrets... i have never really shared them... oh sorry, i have told some of some... but there are still many feelings left untold... who doesn't have feelings left untold??? i guess this what makes each person interesting, discovering what secrets they hide... i just happen to have more of them...

ooopsss... of all the things i have mentioned, don't get me wrong ok... i may be secretive and not sharing much but i'm genuine.... though i cannot say "what you see is what you get" applies to me since there is more to me... but i'm not a tupperware (read as plastic) ok... i laugh at something funny, i get hurt when someone throw stones (physically and idiomatically)... i can be sarcastic too..

oh yeah, i have written this line up there "i hate to share my feelings because i too, have not yet figured it out"... i think this makes a good topic for the next blog... figuring out the unknown... wahahaha... i can now imagine what things to write. i'll surely go around in circles again...

and yeah, did you all know that i'm colorblind??? i guess you all do, that is not a secret at all... but i just don't share that fact to all... oh no... maybe i just did...