oh your eyes, your eyes...

life has become very much challenging for the past 2 months--it was very hard to breathe, to eat, to sleep, to rest. notice the date of the last entry and this one, it is very much far off. i have been complaining too much with this new schedule i'm in. i hope i get all the recognition i deserve for this.

but in those hardships you were there. and now i'm more confused. i have somehow gotten over this feeling for the past months, but then you are back. and i don't only see you in the corner now, i get to talk to you. which is great, but dangerous at the same time.

i don't want to entertain this at all, never. i don't want to to be in your queue list at all. it's not that i hate waiting (though i really do.) but this is taboo. things are not right specially with the circumstances now.

i know i'm attracted but i don't want this to get in the way. it already takes huge effort to talk to you, but i just have to. it is very uncomfy for me, i can't even look at you in the eye. what more if this feeling gets exposed...

i think it is your eyes... it is like those of puss-n-boots.

i think you have to wear shades all day long. if i don't see your eyes, i think i can survive. don't do those eyes to me. it melts my heart... and makes me confused... and stutter... and then blank... no more words... uttering nonsense... hope you don't notice that you are the reason for those.

and then you'll smile at my blabber. and i'm lost...


damn you!

so near yet so far, part 2.