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Monday, March 2, 2009

emotions of a cactus

should it be like that???

assures you one day but leaves you for weeks?? am i a fool to even think that it might still work?? maybe to him it will but to me, building trust is much slower than building walls... i just hate the fact that i easily fell for the confession and raised my hopes. 

yes he may be busy but all i am asking is a simple hello. or a simple good morning. he cannot provide those simple things. 

i once had a close friend but he went to singapore to study. the internet was a newly established thing back then and having one is a luxury. we never get to chat but deep inside me nothing has changed. we were still friends, i thought. then there came a time that we have finally discovered messenger, i was ecstatic. but i felt the gap between us every time we chatted. there is just this empty space, vacuous void that i can't fill. we got the chance to meet once but there was nothing there. we grew apart.

now with this experience, i can't help but be paranoid. who says we don't need conversations to stay friends??? i don't believe in that bullshit. how can a relationship grow without words?

conversation is essential in every relationship.

i am no cactus that you can water one day and leave alone for weeks...


2 comments:

  1. agree with you that conversation or communication is essential in every relationship...

    by the way, you are filipino... and do you know chinese? your nickname innocent and do you understand what those chinese character means?


    色男 means lecher LOL

    Innocent Lecher? hahaha no pun intended

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  2. good that someone agrees with me on the communication need.

    yup im filipino and knows a little japanese... those characters are in japanese too...

    pun was really intended on the name... wahihihih

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