emotions of a cactus

should it be like that???

assures you one day but leaves you for weeks?? am i a fool to even think that it might still work?? maybe to him it will but to me, building trust is much slower than building walls... i just hate the fact that i easily fell for the confession and raised my hopes. 

yes he may be busy but all i am asking is a simple hello. or a simple good morning. he cannot provide those simple things. 

i once had a close friend but he went to singapore to study. the internet was a newly established thing back then and having one is a luxury. we never get to chat but deep inside me nothing has changed. we were still friends, i thought. then there came a time that we have finally discovered messenger, i was ecstatic. but i felt the gap between us every time we chatted. there is just this empty space, vacuous void that i can't fill. we got the chance to meet once but there was nothing there. we grew apart.

now with this experience, i can't help but be paranoid. who says we don't need conversations to stay friends??? i don't believe in that bullshit. how can a relationship grow without words?

conversation is essential in every relationship.

i am no cactus that you can water one day and leave alone for weeks...