soliloquy at solitude

the title is kinda cute. pretty catchy, but it all stops from there. 

for the past 2 weeks, i have been alone in my work place. my seatmate left me and seems like she won't be back at all. why would she be back when all she can ever find is the lowly me, all gloomy and negative... it would have been better if we had other seatmates but nopes, we were placed at a corner with nothing but printers and scanners to listen to everyday. on times where i am bored, i usually browse up sites but this is hard to do in this forsaken place; seniors are lurking near. what a perfect place to shut me up.

at first it was really hard. it would have been better if i were busy with something, but to my surprise i had nothing to do. alone with nothing to do for 8 hours; imagine how bored i am. 

• i joined facebook and added friends to keep me busy. but it was not that long, i ran out of friends. i should start being more sociable.
  
• i started playing games in facebook and concentrated on it. to the people out there who might be amazed and wondered why i leveled up so fast, stop wondering already. it is but a mere result of boredom.
  
• i read all the blogs i can find and commented on almost all of them. i even followed up on comments. the blog world is just crazy and entertaining.
  
• i chewed gum. this kept my mouth busy. excess saliva must be swallowed and is not allowed to pool the keyboard.
• and then i started to explore the workarea, finding people whom i can talk and chat with... how pitiful could i have looked. but it was better than drying up due to boredom... or drowning from your own saliva...
  

i have managed to find a lunch mate and it is quite enjoyable. a lunch without company is just too gloomy (word used twice. this is alarming). i also talked with the temporary friend on the previous posts. i just can't help but talk to him since he sits halfway between me and my lunchmate. and yeah, i don't want to burn bridges. silly me, i could have just smiled back at his stares and walked away. now, the sturdy wooden bridge between us has downgraded to a long, narrow, dangerous swinging hanging bridge with its decaying wooden planks. i would dare not cross over that damn bridge. he might. here is a song dedicated to him. (i also got the time to find song verses. wahihihi.)

Does it hurt to know I'll never be there

Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere

It was you, who chose to end it like you did

I was the last to know

You knew exactly what you were doin'

Don't say, you simply lost your way

They may believe you but I never will

Never again

Never again will I hear you

Never again will I miss you

Never again will I fall to you

Never

i may act stupid ok but i am intelligent.

i was shocked to find out today that his whole team moved to another floor. it made me a little sad. but it also proves that maybe i shouldn't cross that bridge. 

surprisingly though, as i swayed away from him his colleague got closer to me. he came to my seat just to talk. this i appreciated very much and this is what i was longing the temporary friend would do before. i truly appreciate simple acts like this. 

now why did i make this post???? 

because i am bored.

and why was i bored???? 

because the facebook game i was playing is under maintenance. 

また今度!!!