till now, i can still recall pieces of hurtful incidents every time i see him... no matter how hard i try to forget things, they are still there... when i thought that it doesn't matter anymore, the moment i see his face everything returns and the feeling is relived. and then i get sad once more... and i self pity... and get angry sometimes...
why won't this brain forget it??? just let it be.. leave him alone... it seems like every time i see him, a dam-ful of emotions is released... hey brain, you have always been my ally. everyone praised your ability to retain information... but that same characteristic of yours is killing you now... why can't you let this small past spill over???
and he looks so normal, as if nothing happened... unlike me who is suffering.
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i guess this must be resolved fast... my brain is telling me that i won't be truly satisfied by merely ignoring the person's existence...
why won't this brain forget it??? just let it be.. leave him alone... it seems like every time i see him, a dam-ful of emotions is released... hey brain, you have always been my ally. everyone praised your ability to retain information... but that same characteristic of yours is killing you now... why can't you let this small past spill over???
and he looks so normal, as if nothing happened... unlike me who is suffering.
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i guess this must be resolved fast... my brain is telling me that i won't be truly satisfied by merely ignoring the person's existence...
u still young. its ok to complain. u'll feel gud after letting out ur steam. :)
ReplyDeletethanks khao... i truly appreciate your words.
ReplyDeleteif you've done everything and you still can't forget..and after thinking over things,you finally realize that it would be solved if you can't see that bweset face anymore, then just go hire an assassin..lolz
ReplyDeleteshiira is the epitome of brutality....
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