bummed for the third time

for the third time.... nada!

what does that mean?

i'm not that good enough to be on that train. they preferred that i rot stuck on a tree than bail me out.

oh well, i should have shouted for help stronger. but i didn't. maybe i also preferred to rot stuck. but if they really do need me, they should have forced their way. they have done the same for the others but never for me.

always a candidate but never made it. always considered but never acquired.

i don't think i can afford a fourth nada. if you do consider me again, just keep it to yourselves. a surprise would be better. and then i'll probably surprise you with a big NO!

time to reconsider offers.

the long fought battle is won

well this is not a literal battle. its more like a clash of ideas.

i'm just glad they will finally come home. i'm glad they will still go back there when all of this ends. but i'm frustrated at how dirty this business can get. i can't help but feel like mere pawns sometimes; i can't help to feel like toys. we too have emotions for christ's sake... we have feelings... we have lives... we have families... we are human. and with this long battle, i can't help but feel helpless. the trust i gave was crushed. i trust them with my life and that they will take care of me in times of troubles like this. but now, it seems they were only focused on impressions, status, money. i'm not directly affected, i am only a witness. but these actions are forever etched in my soul. i'm quite sure the same thing will happen if it were me. i just cannot trust them with all my heart.

at least it is over. the decision has been made. they will be back! but for sure they are left with emotional scars. frustration...

it is over for now. let's tackle this some other day.

as the earth trembles 20110311

i was sitting patiently in the office and then a message came from our colleagues in japan, earthquake. oh well, japan is known for that. while i was there for 2 years, i must have experienced the most earthquake in my entire life.

but then new messages came, they went out of the buildings. it was that strong! we then started to call our other colleagues in tokyo, worried of their safety. no contact.

communication network is down but internet is fine, said our boss in japan. this was at around 2pm philippine time.

talked with other friends in japan making sure they are safe and getting news about the others, it was heart pounding. we finally received a call from 2 colleagues, they were both fine but the trauma is clear in their voices. stationed at the 6th floor, they immediately grabbed the helmets and ran down the stairwell. wall cracks becoming visible and ceiling paints raining down, it was like a movie. when they came back, all their things were tossed around, giant monitors down the floor. they recalled via phone giving us updates before they go home and end the working day abruptly.

lss (the jingle edition)

isn't this jingle catchy? i've been singing this for some days now. enjoy singing!!!

ALAM MO BANG TYPE KITA
DAHIL SA MALASA KA
MEATLOAF KITA
MASARAP
MALAMAN
DAHIL ARGENTINA KA
MEATLOAF KITA
PWEDE BA NA TABIHAN
KITA SA PLATO
O DI KAYA SA SANDWICH
MAG CHICK TO CHICK TAYO
SARAP
ARGENTINA LOVE KO BUONG BUO
MEATLOAF KITA

my meatloaf. bow!


so what do you guys think??? it's pretty catchy right? you might not admit it now but anytime you will be humming this tune. wahihihi