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Thursday, March 17, 2011

the long fought battle is won

well this is not a literal battle. its more like a clash of ideas.

i'm just glad they will finally come home. i'm glad they will still go back there when all of this ends. but i'm frustrated at how dirty this business can get. i can't help but feel like mere pawns sometimes; i can't help to feel like toys. we too have emotions for christ's sake... we have feelings... we have lives... we have families... we are human. and with this long battle, i can't help but feel helpless. the trust i gave was crushed. i trust them with my life and that they will take care of me in times of troubles like this. but now, it seems they were only focused on impressions, status, money. i'm not directly affected, i am only a witness. but these actions are forever etched in my soul. i'm quite sure the same thing will happen if it were me. i just cannot trust them with all my heart.

at least it is over. the decision has been made. they will be back! but for sure they are left with emotional scars. frustration...

it is over for now. let's tackle this some other day.


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