一番作文 - introduction

はじめまして。

私はフリッツです。としは２４さいです。フィリピンのセブとうからきました。

私の家族は父と母だけで兄弟はいません。でも、しんせきがたくさんいるのでさみしくありません。

今は日本でエンジニアとして働いています。仕事はとてもいそがしので、あそびに行く時間がありません。私のせいかつはかわいそうでしょう。

しゅみはアニメやドラマを見ることです。そうして、日本の音楽はおもしろいと思います。フィリピンでは冬がないけれども、ゆきが好きです。ゆきがふったらいつもうれしくなっています。

日本人と話す時に、私はいつも「はい」とへんじしますけども、じつは何を話しているか意味があまり分かりません。日本語をてつだってください。私はがんばります。

よろしくおねがいします。

a traveller contemplates

i have completely lost my way.

at first it was complete joy, new places and new people to meet.

but it is not the case now.

looking back, i realized that as the time went by it was no more fun.

i have always chosen the safe path, never have i traveled the unknown again.

the friends i knew then were no more there, we have grown apart.

my relationship with people have grown sour and life has become more unfair.

but what hurts me the most is that all of those held me back.

i just want to laugh hard again, to smile to the fullest.

i want to rediscover this place again and not grow tired of it.

i want to try something new, i want to have the courage to try something new.

i want to fly with nothing holding me down.

let me soar...

let me flirt... (oops, wahahahha)

time

without me realizing it, time has passed so quickly.

last friday night, i had a late night work activity starting at 10pm with the deadline after an hour. with a blink, the hour passed and i had to call up for extension. after half a blink, postponed.

1 hour seems like a blink. if only the second hands turned a little slower then the hour would be longer.

it seems like yesterday but my overtime work has been happening for 2 months already.

it seems like a week ago but its been 2 years living in japan.

i now start to wonder about the future. i shouldn't be doing. i don't want to think some more. i just want to sleep and be free from the traps of corporate slavery.

can i turn back time to the point where they asked me if i want to continue for another year? i want to experience what it would have been if i said no.

worn out

if life is always as busy as this, is it possible to pause for a while???

i don't want things to stop but i also want to rest and enjoy the slow paced life.

it has been 3 weeks of relentless nights. i have spent most of my day at work. who wouldn't want to take a rest and stop? who wouldn't???

i've been bugged by lots of calls and confrontations telling issues of this and that everyday. who wouldn't want to take a rest???

it is not only you guys who are in this trouble so it is much better if i know at least what you've been doing. if only i could tell them all to contact you guys instead, then it would be so damn fine not to know a thing at all.

what i hate most aside from the fact that i pretty know very little about things happening is that action is soooooo slow. i ask for something at this time and ask for status in the next hour, oh i forgot about that... ask again in another hour, ah yeah i'll do that now... in another hour, what was this about again. next time you call, they get irritated. wtf!!! it is me who gets to go to command room and perform something in the wee hours, it is me who answers emergency calls, it is me who gets to apologize for your slow action affecting other people. and i really hate having less control/grasp over something. i hate the feeling of worthlessness...

they eat back there while i am starving over here. but i've learned. i'll eat when hungry, no buts... take care of your damn issues while i'm out.

the difference in our philosophy greatly shows now. while others want to slowly work their way, taking their time to fix something doing the same uneventful stuff over a long period, i on the other hand want to fix it as soon as possible and take my much deserved rest without any worries. i really don't want to worry the same thing over and over and over.. and i can only stop worrying if i know that everything is running fine.

and somehow i am wondering why all tasks are taken by 2 people only...

maybe i am to blame... for trying to give my all to what i'm doing... for being a martyr.

maybe they should pick another guy to handle their stuff: someone who doesn't give a damn about anything would be great perhaps.

maybe it's time to...

blue

i never expected this post in the first place. i have 2 drafts waiting for final checking but those can wait.

i am an avid fan of dancing with the stars, i won't even deny that. so yesterday, i downloaded the latest episodes and started watching late night. the first one was smooth, enjoyed it so much. now moving on to the next, ooops... i can't play it. media player suggested a codec to install; so there goes the trusting me, naively downloaded and installed the codec.

blue


surprise surprise... though i'm colorblind, i know what this means. rebooted and...

blue


wtf!!!

latest known good configuration and...

blue


safe mode and...

blue


WTF!!! if i have watched porn then these things are somehow a consequence, but i didn't... what pisses me off is the fact that this was a windows suggestion... double WTF!!! i should have just watched porn.

and now i told the world about it and guess what they said...

too much porn can cause laptops to behave erratically

i really should have just watched porn.





ps: i'm still in office so can't do much about it. got couple of ideas though...
ps x2: the commenter above doesn't want to be called "the world". "the world" is surely harsh asking me to throw away my laptop now. wahahaha...