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Tuesday, April 17, 2007

dilemma.... 41

such a feelings coming over me. i hope there is wonder in everything i see... but there isn't. uncertainty is rocking the post I'm on, and I'm not sure whether to give in or fight back...

people around me have been missing. as the weeks pass, more and more are gone. I'm sure nobody wants to be left alone but I'm scared of leaving this post I'm on... what if down this post are spiky spikes... what if down this are spider nests, or dragon lairs, or an endless abyss... what if....

but i don't want to be left alone... i don't want to endure this pain of holding on forever... someday i know i will yield to it and surrender defeat but i don't want to do it unless there is another place i can jump unto... who wants to dive into nothingness? certainly not i. but should i wait until this post I'm on crashes before i make a move? what a dilemma....


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